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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 00:04

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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She wouldn,t have been !

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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One cannot live in the past .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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We all went to grammer schools

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So, i spoilt her more .

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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I don,t even have a pension.

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Comes on , in middle age.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She was in good health!

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Put me off passion for life!!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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I could never make a relationship work though!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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Im dying but, im not bitter.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He knew the spot.

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Would this be the day?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And i lived it daily.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

But, we were locked up after school.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I was seconnd youngest,

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Im still living with it.

It was going to be , some day.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I waited trembling.

My family never makes their pension either.

So whats the point in blame.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was 9 years of age.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I was very sick at this time too.

I will be 64.

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I think the readers, may guess!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I have no regrets .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But ive been too sick for many years..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My life is so biszare .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I was scared of men, in general

We were not on the streets..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She loved him until the end.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She found it foreign!.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Was to survive, this bastard.

But it wasn’t much.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She married twice! .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

When she asked me how she looked .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He resisted the act ,that day.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

(And it was in our own minds.)

This is soul school!.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I write beautiful poetry .

Who then, do I blame.?

All the time i was locked up.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Ive learnt so much.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I said to her

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

What did i know ?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!